scratches-on-paper:

Multiply One Shot - ‘One’

A/N

This is a first in a series of Multiply One Shots from the album. Inspired from iwritethingsaboutedsheeran.

You can check hers out too. I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m not the greatest at this but I actually quite like this one. :) I find my one shots kinda get cheesy, I don’t know. Regardless, I hope you like this one shot based off the first song on the album ‘One’. x

 

Down by the far edges of Framlingham there wasn’t an abundance of of buildings nor people. That was a good thing, for Ed at least. His mind and body have passively sucumbed to his waves of emotions. He was exhausted.

All Ed has been doing was gigs and writing. Most people mope around doing nothing when they were extremely upset. Ed couldn’t stop working for he feared that if he stopped he’d never see the light of day again.

Not a lot of people as young as Ed was at the time could say that they have been in love, but he has. How did he know? When it broke he broke and it felt like he was beyond repair. Ed wasn’t wandering around the town confessing his life and events to the moon and the stars in the dawning night.

He was headed to a pub; the pub, contrary to it’s surroundings, was full of people. Ed sighed in an odd sense of relief. As if the ambience of the drunks in the room were loud enough to distract and drown his thoughts. They weren’t.

Ed kept his head down and waved to the bartender who gave him a pitying look, a look you would give a child when their dog died. The place smelled of bad alcohol, sweat and smoke. He ordered shots, beers, vodkas and ignored the looks he received from the groups of men and their drinks.

Ed stared at his half empty glass of sparkling amber liquid. His finger ran around the wet rim of the glass. Ed found himself distracted by the condensation on the sides of the cool beverage.

Her face flashed under his eyelids with every blink. Her shoulder length brown hair and deep brown eyes. Her hand in his. Her delicate soft lips that broke into a beautiful smile. The necklace he had carved out of stone and her reaction when he put it on her. He instinctively grabbed his only to find the ghostly absence of it; he had cut it off and it still lies on his bedside table.

“Ed,” he could hear her familiar voice and sweet laughter echo through his mind along with the faint ringing in his ears, mocking him.

“Who are we anymore?”

“What do you mean?”

Ed took a shot glass and poured the cold alcohol into his mouth and let it burn down his throat.

“Look I know your dreams are important to you,” she sighed.

Ed was speechless for a moment.

“But I feel like we barely are actually together and I feel like I don’t know you well enough anymore, you’re never around.”

His red eyes, prickled with tears, met hers.

“I’ll be better, I promise, I’ll do whatever it takes” he was on the verge of begging.

“I don’t want to get in your way,”

“You’re not,” was all he could say.

“We’re falling apart Ed, admit it! And we’re going to fall apart more with me going to UNI and you growing your following,” she stated the hopeless truth.

A giant gulp tingled his mouth and tongue as he licked his lips.

“I can’t do this anymore, we just weren’t meant to last,” tears ran down her face.

She took off her half of the necklace Ed had made for the two of them and placed it and closed his hand over it.

Fireworks blazed in front of his eyes and pounded his membrane.

“There must be some way to work through this,” Ed stuttered through foggy eyes trying to blink them away. He felt his heart panic in his throat as his stomach twisted.

“I’ll wait for you to finish UNI and I’ll find a way to see you more often…”

“Please stay,” Ed breathed.

“We won’t see each other at all if we part,” Ed said, “I won’t know you at all and I can’t fathom that.”

She shook her head sadly. Ed let the necklace slip from his hand and drop to the floor.

The alcohol was surely starting to concentrate in his body with the large intake he was compiling. His head spun, body tingly.

Two days ago Ed accidentally spotted her talking to a tall dark haired guy; she gave him a small sweet smile. He’d missed that smile. Of course they were just talking but Ed had heard that he had a crush on her. He knew that since they were no longer together she could do whatever she wished but Ed couldn’t help feeling his chest swell with anger and despair.

Ever since their last encounter Ed has done nothing but sit in the darkness of his room and pour himself into the ink of a pen and wrote himself on paper, through songs while equally hopeless songs spun in circles on his dad’s old record player. That and drinking of course.

The glass cup slammed the counter top. Ed stood up and threw the cup to the ground, enraged. As he watched the glass shatter to a million pieces he felt the eyes of everyone in the bar muttering under their breath.

“Damn it!” Ed screamed as silence chased after the sound.

“Screw this,” Ed whispered.

Ed was not an angry drunk unless he was drinking to mask emotion, which obviously never worked. He stumbled outside and the cool air smacked him in his dazed drunk face. He braced himself against a wall and watched the starry night spin.

Once the fluid in his ears stopped sloshing around so much like the beer he was swirling in his bottle a few minutes ago Ed proceeded to venture down the solitude road.

He had no idea where he was heading nor did he give a shit; why would it matter? He had no where to go, without her, he was lost. Lost. Who was he and what did it matter when you’re a hollowed being?

He could hear the chirping of the crickets, feel the slight breeze brush his skin, he could see the vastness of the universe spinning way too fast over his head; both literally and metaphorically. Ed could smell the grass in the fields and smoke from the streets. His mouth tasted dry with the aftertaste of alcohol along with bile in his throat.

Multiple times Ed tripped over his own feet in the darkness. He didn’t know how long he wandered around the town absent from the light but somehow he had ended up at an all too familiar doorstep at one in the morning.

He supported himself against the doorframe under the dim porch light and rapped his knuckles on the door in sporadic intervals. Luckily her parents were out of town, otherwise they would’ve surely chased away the messed up drunk boy out of their property.

The door opened and Ed stumbled in, he fell to the ground as she closed the door behind her. She was in her pajamas but clearly awake.

“Alice,” Ed slurred and whispered at the same time.

“Just,” he let his impaired brain and mouth catch up to each other, “tell me you don’t have a new muse.”

Alice shook her head surprisingly calm as she watched the relief wash over his pale face.

She thought the next time she saw Ed she wouldn’t be able to take it anymore. The break up hurt her just as much. She turned around and walked to the kitchen to make some tea for Ed. It seemed to engage him in somewhat sobriety.

They sat on the couch. Alice watched Ed drink his tea in his mug with a garbage by her side for security. It really did break her heart when she saw Ed such a bad state. She’s seen him at high levels of intoxication but never this bad.

Even once he’s cooled down a little she could see that the real vulnerable him was destroyed way more than currently Drunk Ed. Alice was hurting and depressed from the break as well. She still cared about Ed a lot and it was hard seeing him take it to such extremes, a lot worse than her.

Ed’s head was still pounding as he pressed the heels of his hands on his forehead. He ended up laying his head on her lap and closing his eyes.

“Please don’t leave me,” his mumbles and slurs finally form as he repeats it over and over again.

“I’ll do anything,” an unexpected tear rolls down his face. Ed’s face had a little bit of a ginger stubble.

Alice wiped it away and nearly choked, “Shh, calm down Ed.”

He slowly gets up and kneels on the carpet, “For godsake Ed get up,” Alice tried to lift him to his feet. He was so dramatic when he’s this drunk and sad; never was a really good combo with him.

“I know you don’t want to be together anymore but please,” Ed whispered, “I’m…” he struggled to find words.

“I’ll never leave you.”

“I’m empty without you,” his glazed blue eyes looked up at her.

“I’m so lost, I miss you,” his voice cracked.

She could tell he was devastated but she was sticking to her decision, their decision. It’s for the good of their future, especially Ed’s.

“Hey,” after attempting to lift him of the floor she knelt down beside him.

Her eyes soft, “Everything’s going to be okay.”

“We may not be together but I will always be there for you as a friend,” she paused, “as family.”

“Promise,” Ed looked at her like a lost puppy.

“Promise,” Alice confirmed.

“I should go,” he said suddenly as if he abruptly realized the rudeness of his intrusion so early in the morning.

“Are you kidding? You’re way too drunk to go anywhere,” he was definitely not wandering the streets tonight.

“Alice?” Ed asked as she walked back with a pillow and a blanket.

“Yeah?”

“Stay with me?” Ed asked, “As a friend?”

“Of course, go to sleep,” she replied softly.

Drunk Ed at that moment was so sensitive it was hard to say anything too harsh. Under the moonlight that spilled through the living room window there Ed slept on the couch while Alice watched him.

She judged, from the bags under his eyes, that this was probably the first time in a while that Ed had slept. She glanced down at the necklace Ed had carved for her; no longer on her neck but in a special shoebox where she kept things that she wanted to remember. She rubbed the smooth white stone and knew that they would eventually find happiness and love within other people but they both will still have the memory of the love they had with each other. Everything would be alright.

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Anonymous said: why did you say it was embarrassing to bring your mom to an ed sheeran concert? I'm 17 and we both really like his music, and I don't see what's wrong with her coming with me

iwritethingsaboutedsheeran:

so here’s my issue with the whole parent thing, and you’ll have to try and understand this from a 23 year old’s perspective because i was a teenager once.

Im okay with parents who like the music and genuinely listen to it and respect other people in the crowd etc,etc.

but at the same time, i hate it when parents don’t let their kids go to shows alone because it’s “too dangerous” as though someone is going to get murdered in an ed sheeran crowd (never going to happen. maybe in a slipknot concert..). These parents don’t enjoy the music, they feel it’s necessary to talk through the entire concert to other parents who are there for supervision who also don’t listen to the music, so i’m forced to stand there, with these other adults and TRY to listen to the show. THEN the parents roll up into the pit and start yelling at people who are pushing their kids. Im sorry, but this is a concert and you’re going to get pushed and if you don’t like it then don’t be in the pit. It’s as simple as that. so now you have an adult who is under the impression that they are all high and mighty, who doesn’t care about Ed Sheeran and acts like the concert police, making it a really shitty situation for anyone who is at the show around those people. It’s a waste of space in the pit. They could clearly stand in the back and observe the show from afar so a kid could stand in their place in the pit who actually enjoys the music.

And then there are the adults that somehow manage to get in front of the gate, on the upper level, who also don’t like Ed Sheeran. Why make the decision to be in the front row if you don’t even enjoy it? why not let other people who came here to see ed for the first time, who are so fucking stoked to be here, stand in front of you. IS IT REALLY BOTHERING THEM IF THEY STAND IN THE BACK? no. I had someone once tell me that they had to stand there to keep an eye on their kid, as though they could see them from the upper level in a dark room. they proceeded to talk the entire time. 

It’s cool if your mom likes the music. But don’t bring her along if she’s going to try and put up a protective barrier around you and yell about someone bumping into you the entire time your there, or if she’s going to talk the whole time.

It’s a concert, not social hour for adults who won’t let their kids go to shows by themselves because they are overprotective and don’t trust their children. 

I agree with this 100% and yes Ive seen Ed front row and nose bleed section. And took my son to Ed we were front row at + I am passionate about his music and yet I stood aside to allow girls stand infront of me to see their idol. Maybe cuz I am 5’9 and they were shorter anyways I would see Ed in a heartbeat again. A nd take my son if he still wants to go. Alone or with me. Its freaking Ed Sheeran NOT SOME crazyass headbanging music! Mosh pits are just that.. Fun!!! Remember all of you parents that cant handle them…young or old folks get the F $@* out!

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taylorswift:

When the 4th of July gives you nonstop rain, make a giant slip n slide.

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theedhead:

HE IS HELPING AN OLD WOMAN CROSS THE STREET HE MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU TO NOT LOVE HIM

theedhead:

HE IS HELPING AN OLD WOMAN CROSS THE STREET
HE MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU TO NOT LOVE HIM

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i can’t breathe, without you but I have to…

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sheeriosnotcheerios:

curious forest creature

sheeriosnotcheerios:

curious forest creature

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the-urban-angel:

Ed you’re not black, you’re a ginger. Now put your gang signs down and put on your sunscreen


Omg dont think it could have been said more correct than this. Get you banana boat on Ed. Listen to your peers.

the-urban-angel:

Ed you’re not black, you’re a ginger.
Now put your gang signs down and put on your sunscreen

Omg dont think it could have been said more correct than this. Get you banana boat on Ed. Listen to your peers.

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You’re welcome

leaveyouapen:

Silence is poetic

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mickeysdicksmasherseasonpass:

mrsmiawallaces:

This Vine gives me life

I watched this like ten times in a row and I can’t stop going back to it

Oh lord..cant stop fan clubbing

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Life

1. Own up to your mistakes. Because God knows we all make them, and you should not expect another person to take responsibility for yours.

2. Forgive people when they apologize. Because we all make mistakes and deserve to be pardoned for them.

3. Forget people if an apology is not enough. Lauren Conrad once said “I want to forgive you, and I want to forget you.” And nothing has ever been more true. Just because you forgive people does not mean you have to keep them around.

4. Learn to tolerate people. You won’t like everyone, and that’s okay. But that’s no reason to be rude.

5. Love people with all your heart. Because it’s the best thing we can do in this lifetime.

6. Do anything for anyone. If someone you’re only moderately friends with asks you for help, help them. Because we’re all just humans and sometimes we need some extra help.

7. Don’t do things with the expectation of a reward. You deserve a “thank you,” but that’s nota reason to help someone either. Do it just to do it.

8. Listen to good music. The kind that makes your heart race.

9. Wear clothes you feel good in. It doesn’t matter if they’re in style, it matters that you like them.

10. Laugh at yourself. Find humor in your greatest mistakes.

11. Learn from your mistakes. Along with humor, find lessons that will help you later in life.

12. Don’t regret your mistakes. Not because they taught you a lesson, but because that decision is cliché. Don’t regret your mistakes because there is absolutely nothing you can do to change them, and you deserve better than that pit in your stomach every time you think about them.

13. Never leave a friend alone. It doesn’t matter how drunk they are. It doesn’t matter how crazy they are. It doesn’t matter if you’ve reached a point where you can no longer help them. Never leave a friend alone in a situation, or alone in life.

14. Accept that some people want tattoos on their body. And accept that some people don’t. And accept that beauty is only skin deep.

15. Forget what race people are. No one is “pretty for a black girl” or “smart for a white girl.” We are all beautiful, intelligent, and kind humans and the color of our skin should have no relevance to anything.

16. Find a book that you can call your favorite. The kind that draws you into the story and makes the characters part of your life.

17. Find a movie to watch on rainy days. It doesn’t have to be your favorite movie; it has to be a snuggle kind of movie.

18. Find a role model worth being. Don’t strive to be a pill-popping actress who sleeps with presidents, regardless of how pretty her quotes look in cursive font. Strive to be an Audrey Hepburn, a Jackie Kennedy, or even a Michelle Obama.

19. Love your parents. Even if they failed you, at least they tried. And at least they loved you enough to try and fail. And at the very least, they gave you life.

20. Find a favorite place. Where you can escape the world when the world gets too much.

21. Be rational. Don’t get upset over things not worth getting upset about, and don’t be mad at people for something they didn’t do. Be rational with your emotions.

22. Don’t blame people for things they cannot control. Because that is unfair and if you were in their position, you’d realize how unfair it is.

23. Talk about your problems when you have them. Because bottling things up gets you nowhere.

24. Tell people when you’re angry with them. Don’t assume they know, and don’t just be angry with them. Talk to them and explain the problem.

25. Don’t pretend you understand sports if you don’t. Life’s too short to pretend you know what a touchdown is.

26. Don’t like a sports team just to like them, or just because you’re from their state. Because no one really
cares, and the true fans will hate you.

27. Travel the world. Because it’s bigger than your suburban town.

28. Get lost somewhere. It may be dangerous at times but it’s worth roaming the streets of a pretty city for a while.

29. Be dirt poor, but be happy. As long as you’re happy, money doesn’t matter.

30. Pay people the money you owe them. Because eventually it adds up, and it’s the right thing to do.

31. Accept that people drink alcohol. Even if you don’t, don’t judge someone else for it.

32. Accept that people drink alcohol before they’re 21. And that’s just part of being a kid.

33. Realize someone’s pain is more than you know. If you believe a girl lies when she says she’s fine, believe that she probably hurts more than you know.

34. Don’t believe everything on the Internet. Obviously.

35. Understand that life is too short to lose the people you care about. And if someone makes you happy, maybe you should take the bad along with the good.

36. But if the bad is too much, don’t be afraid to lose people. Because if they don’t make you happy, you deserve to live free of them.

37. Take everything with a grain of salt. And don’t sweat the small stuff.

38. Don’t insult someone’s family member. They’re allowed to mock them as much as they want, but will always remember and be insulted by the time you joined in.

39. Don’t insult someone’s job. Because they work hard for a living.

40. Don’t insult someone’s education. Especially if they’re working hard for it and it’s all they can afford. Because at least they’re on the pursuit of knowledge.

41. Always be on the pursuit of knowledge. Never allow yourself to stop learning, or stop wanting to learn.

42. Love people for who they are. Not what they look like.

43. Find a trait in a person that drives you wild. A trait you love, something completely different from their overall appearance. Love the way a person blinks, or laughs, or cries. Love them for the tiny things.

44. Find someone who makes you laugh. Someone who makes you throw your head back and cackle in the most unattractive way. Someone who makes you happy.

45. Learn to make others laugh. At no one’s expense. Learn to make people laugh without hurting others, because that could be one of the greatest talents we could possess.

46. Find a best friend. Find a soul mate in another human being that you can trust with your entire heart. And don’t ever be in a romantic relationship with them. Just find a friend who, if called upon, would pick up the phone at 2am and be at yours within minutes.

47. Be the kind of friend who will pick up the phone at 2am. Because someone out there deserves a friend like that, and it should be you.

48. Live in a terrible apartment. But make what happens inside be unforgettable.

49. Be happy wherever you are. Living in a terrible apartment shouldn’t change your happiness.

50. Understand that if it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be. Don’t tip toe around your relationship with the fear that you may ruin it. If it’s meant to last, it will last despite your setbacks.

51. Never cheat. Because it is the most selfish thing we can do in this lifetime.

52. Do not lie. Because you will be caught.

53. Don’t retaliate, and don’t seek revenge. Be known for being kind, and for biting your tongue. People will respect you for it, and resent the other person more.

54. Desire to be known for something great. For your humor or your grace or your kindness. Desire for the world to remember you by something absolutely perfect.

55. Love animals. Because they never fail to love us.

56. Love the flaws in humans. Because we’re all perfect in an imperfect world.

57. Think of the one thing you could do every day for the rest of your life. And do it. Even if you can’t make it your living, even if you can only do it once in a while; find something that you love to do.

58. Be goofy or stupid without fear of people laughing at you. Because as long as you can laugh at yourself, people laughing at you will never matter.

59. Forgive yourself for your own mistakes. Because we all make them and they do not define you.

60. Treat people well. You can’t control much in life, but you can control how you treat people. Treat people with kindness, despite how they treat you.

61. Understand that a person’s relationship preferences are out of your control. If you don’t agree with homosexuality, then don’t agree with homosexuality. But don’t for a single second think that your opinion of them will change or affect them. Just mind your business.

62. Love people despite their greatest flaws. And hope they have the courtesy to do the same.

63. Know that you deserve an apology, but be willing to forgive people without one. It’s okay to wait for an apology until any type of friendship can restart, but forgive people for their actions without them asking. Because, again, people make mistakes.

64. Learn to live without technology. Live off the grid, and go a day without people knowing your every move. It’s liberating.

65. Own as many comfortable clothes as possible. Because rainy days need comfort.

66. Forget about birthdays. It’s okay to love to celebrate your birthday and to be happy doing it. But remember it’s just a day and it isn’t the end of the world if it isn’t perfect.

67. Don’t be ashamed of loving a person. Don’t be ashamed of loving a person because of their gender, because of their race, because of their background, because of their reputation, or because they’ve hurt you. Love people because you love, not because you should love them.

68. Don’t strive to be skinny. Strive to be comfortable in your own skin.

69. Don’t hate yourself if you don’t have curves. Accept that you were born with the body type that you have, and that being skinny or curvy does not determine your beauty.

70. Remember that you don’t have to look skinny to look good. Because some types of clothing don’t even look good on skinny girls, and you should not think you have to be tiny to be pretty.

71. Don’t wear too much makeup. Because you’ll regret it when you’re thirty, and no amount of selfies you took in high school will change that.

72. Love someone without having sex with him or her. Love them for more than their body.

73. Love someone for his or her body. Love them for their mind and then fall in love with every inch of them.

74. Allow yourself to be so attracted to a person that just being in his or her presence is perfection. Allow yourself to be attracted to their body and their mind and their laugh and their smell. Love a human being so much that nothing is unattractive about them.

75. Do not fear being alone. And do not rush into things just because you’re alone.

76. Thank people for their sacrifices. I don’t care if you don’t believe in war, but at least love the soldiers who fight for you. And I don’t care if you resent your parents, but love them for the things they gave up for you.

77. Allow yourself to be a child. And enjoy being young while you are.

78. Allow yourself to be mature when necessary. And know these necessary moments.

79. Never forget where you came from. And the memories that you made there. Because no one’s childhood was perfect, but it made us who we are. Never forget to be nostalgic.

80. Never forget the little things. Remember the sound of your father coming home from work at night. Remember the warmth on the first spring day you could open your car windows. Remember the way your kitchen light glowed at night when you walked up the stairs to bed.

81. Take care of yourself. Take care of your hair, and your skin, and your body, and your heart.

82. Don’t forget your first heartbreak. Because it shaped your future relationships.

83. Don’t let your first or second or even third heartbreak ruin your future relationships. Heartbreaks will change how you perceive relationships, but don’t let it ruin them. Let another man teach you how to be treated.

84. Learn how to enjoy beer. And learn how to cherish the summer nights on your porch.

85. Learn how to enjoy wine. And learn how to cherish the nights with your mom in the kitchen, when she finally let you drink alcohol under her roof.

86. Respect your parents’ wishes. Because they want what’s best for you.

87. Respect your friends’ decisions. You don’t have to agree with them. It’s their life. But love them anyway.

88. Learn how to do something cool. Something to whip out during a lull at parties. Learn how to rap a stupid song or how to flick a beer bottle cap across the room. Learn how to win at poker or learn how to French braid hair.

89. Fight for things you believe in. And hope that one day, things will be just.

90. Don’t just say; do. Don’t disagree with something to the point where you always complain, but then do nothing about it. Do something.

91. Don’t say you’re a hippie just because you smoke weed. Just don’t.

92. Always try. Don’t accept defeat if you haven’t truly tried.

93. Don’t insult peoples’ hometowns, or home states. Because those are the places that raised them.

94. Find a place that makes your favorite food. A place that isn’t a chain restaurant, a place where they’ll know your order by heart.

95. Find someone who loves how you crinkle your nose. And loves that you love a good book and superhero movies.

96. Learn how to cuddle. And learn how to love a moment so wholeheartedly for the sole reason that that person is in your arms.

97. Learn when it’s time to move on. But as you move on from something, never forget how perfect things where while they were still perfect.

98. Know when to bite your tongue. Just because you have opinions, doesn’t mean everyone needs to hear them.

99. Think about more than just yourself. Because there are other people in this world.

100. Make your own decisions in life. If you don’t agree with a list on Thought Catalog, don’t do what it says. Make your own decisions in life, but make them in a way that is selfless and perfect. Treat people well and hope they will treat you well in return. And make decisions you will be proud of.

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